Thursday, July 19, 2012

My Better Half

I love Julian.
Yesterday was my kinda shitty birthday, but I'm so glad.. That he stood with me,
After the whole day was done and we were drinking on my porch during that beautiful storm, I talked to him about a lot of things, and most of all I told him I love him, and just how much I love him.
How when he leaves and I'm doing other things I get the random feeling of something missing... It's his arms wrapping around me randomly. I start wondering when my other hands will be back. When we're in a bad fight, the whole time I'm looking at him thinking about how much I love him, and how handsome he is, but I'm so fucking frustrated. I love how easy it is for people he barely knows to fall for him, I love how guys look up to him, and I love how girls wish they had someone like him.

I feel blessed, and happy knowing I'm for him, and he's for me too.
He's apart of me, and we're going to grow from here.

 ....
Sometimes we'll be around some trashy people, they'll say something rude to Julian,
 and I'm like,

Come at me, bro.
Then they zip their lip and we're like,
Yeah, fuck you and all those parts too.
We get home and Julian's like,

Knocked the fuck out next to my foot,
Then the next day we're chillin' with my best friend like,

Yeeahh, iguanaa.

....

I love Julian.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Merry Monday gangstas

I noticed my page views are going up,
So, I decided to write something.
 

I'm one of those people who's bad with remembering to take medicine, so I'll set an alarm, take it then try to go back to sleep, but I can't. Julian's a lucky one, he can knock straight back out. Last night, I'm waiting on Julian to jump in the shower with me, after I finished braiding my hair I walk into the room and ask him what was prolonging the situation, he was so eager earlier. He turns his head half way and says, "Someone threatened you." I'm a bit confused so I climb over and sit on his back. It's some girl I told to shut up via Book of faces the other day, I don't really know her, but I detest her for screwing my pregnant friend's boyfriend. So, when she calls me nasty 'cause I laugh at something, let all of thee disdain be known. Anyway, she sent my boyfriend a loonnnggg message saying, "Your girls done, I'm going to find her, I'm fuckin' crazy, you don't know me." All that except, she had really shitty grammar. It made me chuckle a bit since I'm about 5'7, lean, clean, and a bust a bitch or two up machine, I've got a lot on a scrawny, alcoholic, slut junkie, as you may imagine.

Her picture on the site is of her in her underwear drinking beer.
I wonder what message she's trying to send...

How can someone be so butthurt over virtually encountering the someone bigger, badder, and smarter, that they were most likely warned about years ago? I can't say that's ever happened to me because I don't talk to people like I am a snooty bag of dog crap, I just disagree, or call out hypocrisy, and people get sooo angry. I'm currently wondering if she's serious, knowing her intelligence level and inexperience, I don't want to be associated as the girl who beat the other girls butt over the next 3-5 months when people see me. It's self defense.... but it's still distasteful to fight over your feelings being hurt on the internet. Maybe she could prevent it next time by not being a slutbutt, asshole.

Julian was daring her to go ghetto on him, his daddy's got pull with the CPD.
Why would anyone think they could hurt me when their bodies are being destroyed from the inside out, and they're fucked up off SOMETHING every day.

 Oh, your caps lock is so scary, please don't shank me with your bottle shiv, or bite me.
You're boring, and slinky, with nothing to talk about except money that isn't yours, and guns you don't have, you've been infected by the street urchins surrounding you outside or maybe even your own family, you haven't had the capacity to be a winner so you chose to be a sheep in the costume of a wolf.
Glum, and when I show you brilliant apathy you threaten me with your washed up aggression?
I could skin you.