It's a really weird feeling I've been having lately, like everyone in my life is here because they want to be. I feel like people like to control me, but you can't do it for long, if you're good you can get me upset for a few minutes until I start thinking then I'll instill all that negative energy in you and just start to smile and laugh at you. So, it's like a competition between all these guys and girls to get to me. What's the point? Why? Really. Why?
What goes around comes around ten times harder, right?
If I've got haters, I must be doing something right, right?
I make the same mistakes that other people do, and I learn just like you too.
Sadly, a lot of my more recent mistakes were made because I was doing things out of pity, like buying this girls boyfriend everything he ever asked me for, and he screwed me over, he left me hanging. Kissing this dude because I wanted him to stop moping about his ex girlfriend making out with his best friend in the corner, and about how he wanted to kiss me. So, I did it, then he had sex right next to me later that night.. Then two days ago I actually started talking to this other guy who was at the party and made plans to watch awesome serial killer movies, then he just dropped me because this other guy told him I'm a slut? This has happened to me a thousand times, but I still feel bad for people. Then I've got that group of chicks who jock my style and hop on the dick of any guy I show the slightest bit of interest in. Damn. It really makes me want to face palm myself to death, but I wont give up, I'll just breathe and remember not to give a fuck. If someone can believe a bag of shit over me, it's obvious they're not even worth being upset about, they're just ignorant, but it still unsettles me on the inside.
